The year so far.

I'm not really impressed with 2009 so far. Since the year rolled over 53 days ago, not a lot has gone my way. Aside from the small things like people hitting my parked car and my electric meter breaking and recording my electric usage way to high, I've also been hit with two whoppers that have changed a lot of things for me.

The first, chronologically, is that a large part of my life from the last few years is now on the other side of the planet. I think the hardest part of this is the removal of something that's been part of my everyday routine for three years. What do I fill that space with now? It's especially been difficult because I live in another city than everyone I know all by myself. Granted it's still part of the DFW metroplex, I usually only see my friends about three days a week. I used to be content with my time alone at home during the work week because I knew I had something not too far away to look forward to every weekend. But now, I just feel lonely. Even after a fun weekend with my friends, in the end I have to go back to my lonely apartment in Irving and carry on by myself.

The second and most recent event is when I got laid off. Because you can never be too sure on the internet, I'm not going to go in to details, but I feel I was unfairly let go. And it was so sudden. I was on my way home less than fifteen minutes after I'd been told I'm no longer in their employment. Now, I face a lot of uncertainty as I try to regain my composure. What's next? Where am I going to be? When is this next phase of my life going to come about and what am I going to do until then? I did plan on moving on in the near future, but I counted on it being a transition, not an abrupt end followed by a quick scramble to get back on my feet. This is certainly not a great position to be in and I will be glad when it's over.

Please don't take this as a "woe is me" post. There's just been a lot of turbulence in my life recently and I wanted to get my thoughts down. We're only a few weeks into this new year so who knows? Maybe the remaining 312 days will be more than exceptional and blow away this first bit.